Non sto parlando del cuore emotivo, che, dopo il brutto "infarto" di un paio di anni fa, si è già perfettamente ripreso, anche di dimensioni minori di un tempo.
Parlo proprio del mio cuore biologico: ora batte più lentamente, con calma serafica, e potente. Posso correre per ore, posso respirare a pieni polmoni, posso riprendere a vivere a 60 o a 160 battiti per minuto ed anche oltre. Quando serve. Solo se ne vale la pena.
Come disse Lester in American Beauty, dopo essere riuscito a cambiare la sua vita, ma pochi attimi prima di morire ammazzato dalla cieca furia del suo vicino di casa: "Sto da dio - lunga pausa - sto da dio".

I had always heard that your entire life flashes before your eyes the second before you die. Only that one second, isn't a second at all, it seems to stretch out forever like an ocean of time. For me it was lying on my back at boy scout camp, watching falling stars. And the maple trees that line our street. Or my grandmother's hands, and how her skin seemed like paper. And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird. And Janey. And my last thought was of Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it's hard to be angry when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes, I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and I can't take it. My heart swells up like a balloon that's about to burst. But then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it. And then, it flows through me like rain and I feel nothing but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry. You will someday.

(Lester Burnham, American Beauty.)